[ Caleb pauses, fingers stilling in Fjord's hair. His expression doesn't fall, exactly, but does turn more pensive than curious. He remains close, connected, determined to help Fjord understand his thoughts and desires just as he is learning Fjord's. The two of them have always sorted things out best by talking, by being honest with one another about their feelings and intentions. It makes sense that this would be no different. ]

I am most comfortable with someone I care for and trust, Fjord. And you are that.

[ Spoken softly, but insistent. Just going to side-step that faux-casual name drop, which he really wants nothing to do with right now. He would rather keep those complex and painful emotions far away from this moment, which is as yet untainted. ]

I never would have pursued this with you at home, that is true. But I would not have sought it with anyone else, either, for similar reasons. The love I have for you and all of our friends is the closest I have been to anyone in a long time, and I cherish it. It is more than enough for me. [ More than he deserves. But he knows that Fjord doesn't like to hear him talk that way. ] I would never want to put anything before our friendship. But part of the reason I am here with you now is that I trust you feel the same.

[ And as much as it would be easier for him to look away as he talks about this, he doesn't. ]

Honestly, your interest in me surprises me, too. But I am grateful. I had no idea that I could still be with someone like this. Especially someone so thoughtful, kind, and admirable. [ A small smile breaks across his lips as he adds, ] Handsome, too.